my name and bizness has been all over the place..at least what passes for my name and business. people have treated me like shit as a result. but I had my responsibilities to carry out and I did that to the best of my ability.
from the time I knew myself I had shit from people..from those around me relatives or not to teachers and everyone around. I was bright and that seemed to be a big problem..a very big one especially for teachers.
I got beat up all the time before I learned to fight back..and fight back I did. but my shit has continued all the way through. if even a man was born where he did not fit it was me. look at here on these sights.
look at these cricket sites somebody figured out who I am and told CC..I know who that was..a Trinny like myself..Indian and for no reason I was banned. Similarly I was banned at the other sight that I helped build right up from nothing at all. the only site that has stuck with me is Chairman and the only person who has discussed with me freely is ketchim..show no prejudice at all.
I appreciate both..which is why I have stuck with this site...it is the only really friendly west indian site I have encountered. long may it go on but I fear I have to go now..soon. I want to tel the chairman I appreciate him..and ketchim too.
I had a devastating even in my life some years ago. it knocked me for a serious loop. only now I feel recovered to a decent extent. and as the experience of those years run past my eyes I discover that I cannot like the west indies and west indians..nor care about them at all and what happens to the region.
all the politics/economics etc I talk about turns out to be meaningless. it was often sophisticated, always of a decent level and always well meaning. but it is meaningless really because I don't care. I hate west indians..they are hard brutal people who do not care about their own at all. they are all individuals especially Black west indians, do nto care about the region and its possibilities and each other.
I may be a devil but even devils do not fall out of the sky. I am west indian and the west indies made me. there was no other content in my life save the content I came up with. that is what guided and shaped my life..the worst parts and the best part of my life.
I take the best parts because I fought like the devil for them. the worst parts were shaped before I knew how to fight. no one taught me. I had to work it all out myself.
but I don't care that's what. I wanted to, to help correct and change the reality for the better. that was and is a waste of time. west indians cant be reversed relative to their behavior that coincides with their worst interests. such behavior is dominant and things are unlikely to change.
there may be an opportunity ahead that will help the west indies forward. the american domination of the western hemisphere is lessening..american is weakening. that is the force that inculcated the social shit into the west indies that has consumed the positive social possibilities in the development of the region. even from now american weakness permits the region to start strike out on its own, setting its future up.
we will see what they do with their opportunity..a test of their quality as a people. opportunity is still there never is there no chance as long as there is life. so we will see as the world changes..if the world does not blow itself up
but for me as west indian..no more! I am done forever. that was part of my struggle all along..to deal with my west indianism, my experience as west Indian. I have done my best but the west indies was not good for me, hates my guts..and the feeling is mutual 100%
I am not interested anymore at all. this has long been the case but I had to work it out. that took time. I do not wish the west indies west indians bad. its just part of my life now reasoned into proper place and time to move on
Thanks for tolerating me chairman.
thanks for being friendly ketchim, for not being narrow-minded and harsh, for seeing my situation in broader perspective than most..totally appreciated.
go home to BG right away...sort he biz here in a day go home the next and die deh if he have to.
but before he die change he diet totally
eat only clean local veggies..no meat, little salt
get karile and all the bitter stuff. get the ugly karile. that bettah than
the smooth one
it have a lot of stuff dong deh that can help or cure cancer.
get out of the big pharma stuff dat ent wuk so far and get dong to the local foods that keep man healthy
and well..especially the bitter stuff, teas and so on
you nevah know. many people deh sign off on and who try natural stuff and save demselves. but he have to go home and get clean stuff
ketchim wrote: Long Weekend and specialist doctors disappear !
sorry to hear about that man. I thought he was still up and about and could help himself.
Big Pharma is a waste. there is little in there calculated to help people live... only to sell medicine.
look at dem. look at the years..the generations of time wasted with Ganja. deh did it deliberately. the rich and powerful were making tons of money as the real pushers behind all the illegal street action. they kept marijuana illegal to profit big time.
they were sacrificing all the street people, the pushers who the police terrorized, shoot and kill and so on
now look at dem! DEH MAKE IT LEGAL SET UP SHOP AND SELLING IT DEMSELVES!
But ganja is great fuh cancer.. and deh know dat too nut it lock dong. deh lock it dong..research and so on into Ganja.
the plants we have in the west indies that grow all ovah the place...all we does season food with..Chardon Bene' ..karile, curry, Gera, Tumeric....and on and on and on. if the people ion the wst indies had any kind of smarts at all hey would build a proper organic life ad a medicine that saved lives and make a ton of money in the world saving lives.
then americans wud come in a regime change the place and turn it back to the way it is now to make sure people dead not live and survive